Manos
Entry 3 5:28 p.m. "My body is done. All that is left is pain." So much has happened today in this dingy hospital room. Three doctors visited, including Dr. P. All told us that the liver bleed is not resolvable. Because the bleed is not resolvable, the pulmonary emboli are not resolvable. The first doctor told me, with Jenny asleep, it could be days, weeks or a couple of months before she died from this. She confirmed for me that the 1/2 gallon of blood Jenny shed yesterday before getting to the hospital, which was black, shiny and tar-like, likely came out very quickly. The portentous impact of that at the time was unknowable to me. I asked if this is what is going to kill her. The doctor said yes. Then Dr. P. showed up. He said a lot. He made noises about continuing to treat her if that was her wish. But then he said she could die at any moment. The liver bleed is so serious, if she begins bleeding again, she will die quickly. As Dr. P was leaving, Jenny woke. ...