kvetching up

Entry 1 "Part of surviving smear campaigns, part of it is knowing what it looks like. .  . The narcissistic person will have no problems telling bold-faced lies about you. It's like a gaslight. . . but you will be gaslighted by a massive group of people who will come up to you and say, "Whoa, he told me what you did, that wasn't cool."                                                  - Dr. Ramani Ursuvala Last week I had to get on Jenny's mac to find an old tax return to submit for the request for Abby's FAFSA. I knew that screen captures with relevant passwords from Jenny's phone were on the laptop. I just had to read through the jpgs to find them. I need to spend a day with the laptop and  remove all the material on there not related to Jenny's affair and the programmatic disinformation she spread to people about me. This will...

 Entry 1     10:49 a.m. “When a man, however passively, becomes an obstacle to the fulfillment of a woman's desires, he becomes an odious thing in her eyes, - or will, given time enough.”  ― Theodore Dreiser, Sister Carrie Jenny's friend with PDAC is contemplating a second opinion, and sent Jenny her latest CT scan. Stephen King would quit writing novels after reviewing it.  That said, as Jenny and I walked through it, it allowed for a very explicit conversation about the limited nature of options that will follow, should the disease stay its course.  Jenny said to me that if she ever goes on hospice, she would volunteer for any experimental surgery that is out there.  While there isn't any such thing for a person with metastatic PDAC, which I pointed out, I also said that should something arise, the last person who would be considered is someone on hospice. You are so sick by then, you would not meet the rather important consideration of post-sur...

Jan 20 2021 Family Meeting  JANUARY 20, 2021 How was the party?    9:46 AM I am at a hotel, hanging with Abby. Jenny called a family meeting, earlier today after I returned from the hotel. She told the kids the marriage was broken long before Eric. Also, she barely sees him. I said that I would contest that. That I thought things were getting better, we had been looking for a house (even if true, doesnt justify aggressively lying to me) and the kids and I thought things had improved. I said i am leaving because of Eric the pinché motherfucker. She then, for whatever reason, started telling the kids she only learned in sept that i had sex with sonia multiple times. The kids made her stop. It was despicable. She just kept on going, saying she doesnt know if she has 1, 2, 3 or six months, so she has to make the most of it. Began to explain this is why she is out with friends all the time. Leiney told her she was mad at her. She said it seems like whenever she feels well, s...