It Hit Me Like a Slow Bullet, Took Me Some Time to Recognize It.
Sunday March 28, 2021 “I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” --Frank Herbert Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less. --Marie Curie Today, I am living in a world where I have to prepare for the worst. I have again spent the last few days obsessively reading medical journals on PDAC. I don't want to believe this is incurable. I read things like, "Most people die within 4-10 months," and that the true statistic for stage IV with distant metastases. Survival is .5% over 5 years. We are at 7 months. I pray for 30 more years. How do you live in such a state without becoming fear's doppelgänger? I don...