I Get Lost In My Mind
Entry 1 1:18 p.m. Jenny shows early signs of edema in her ankles. I am guessing the steroid she is taking is the reason for this, but I am not a doctor. She showed me her ankles yesterday, and I immediately looked up the side effects of her new steroid, being used off-label to increase her blood pressure. It has worked wonders. For the first time in 31 years, her blood pressure looks normal instead of low. According to the internet, the two side effects of the drug are high blood pressure and edema. I am hopeful that is it. However, Jenny woke up this morning in terrible pain in her stomach. She reports that she had trouble leaning over from the edge of the bed when putting on her pants. One of the side effects of cancer, and this cancer especially, is ascites--fluid created by the cancer that will pool in the interstices of your body. It is incredibly painful. Jenny is understandably worried this signals the end. She was sobbing this morning and I spent an hour comfor...