Adventures in Chemotherapy
Entry 3 3:30 PM It Never Entered My Mind The VM social worker arrived today before Dr. P. We had a long discussion, the therapist, Jenny and I . Initially, it was just the MSW and Jenny talking. This was intense, the MSW firmly but gently pushing Jenny toward reality. When asked by the social worker how she is doing, Jenny told her she is scared, but trying her hardest to keep a positive outlook about her. "Whenever I say to my cancer coach, 'if I beat it,' my coach says, 'Not if, when you beat it.'" The MSW was clearly uncomfortable with this power of positive thinking bullshit. She told Jenny it's possible to hold two beliefs at the same time, that she has to beat this cancer, but that she may not. She explained that whatever Jenny's belief is, it isn't going to manifest as illness or wellness. In other words, if she thinks the cancer is going to kill her, or if she doesn't stay positive, it won't result in tumor growth. The MS...