kvetching up

 Entry 1     9:03 a.m. Jenny is away at VM to do blood work, in advance of the chemo regimen which she begins today. The chemotherapy is called GTX, and consists of 3 drugs: gemcitabine, a taxol derivative, and capecitabine. The capecitabine is in pill form, and is taken daily. She also receives an infusion once a week for three weeks. Then she has a bye week, no pills, no infusion. It is 12 weeks in total. The treatment regimen, which I believe I discussed in an earlier journal entry, has been around for a very long time, since before the breakthroughs that increased the 5 year life expectancy to 2.9 percent. 2.9 percent.  Gemcitabine has been the go to drug for treatment since the 1990s, but doesn't do much, truth be told. It isn't completely ineffective, but most people die at 4.5 months on the regimen, so, it doesn't do much. 5-FU with cisplatin is the wonder treatment, that works until it doesn't. The alternating between the gemcitabine regimen and the...

 Entry 1   2:13 p.m. Jenny's friend Jeanne, who apparently thinks I am terrible to Jenny, (I've read the texts) is here visiting. I have always liked her.  She is one of the therapist friends who was giving Jenny advice after I found out about the affair.

 Entry 1.    4:20 9:20 p.m. Jenny's new  marijuana guru sent a preliminary shipment of tincture and bud for her to use to treat her cancer, while he creates her magic oils.  I smoked so much pot as a kid, people could easily have mistaken me as the lovechild of Cheech & Chong . I knew growers and dealers in my neighborhood, and their and saw operations that would have blow your mind in the 1980s. I quit smoking when I was 20. I tried it again, off and on after I was 45, but it doesn't work for me. Jenny was not a pot smoker, maybe tried it a few times, like 3-4, well after she was in her 20s. She has tried to use different forms of it to treat her cancer, encourages by healthcare professionals including her palliative doc.  I have a friend who runs a network of pot shops in California, and she hooked me up with a Ph.D botanist in 2020, and he gave me lots of advice, all of it good. We tried to follow it. Smoking the flower was the best, he said. But J...