kvetching up

5.16.2026 2014 was the last time I was under 150. I can say with certainty that I was walking 6 miles a day then, and the experience was far more pleasant than using a GLP-1 . That I am taking it to address diabetes is something of a consolation. The fact I was nauseous after eating a meal yesterday and unable and uninterested in eating today given I am at peak nausea makes this milestone less appealing this time. Also, isn't this weight drop dangerous for my heart? After 4.5 months I am down 23 lbs, and still falling. I am so food averse today that the trip to the all holy Costco on samplepalooza Saturday only made me more nauseous. Yuck. OTOH, I am down about 5 pant sizes. 5. I bought a pair of 30w pants today, and they are still too big. I haven't worn a pair of pants less than 30w since I dated Margy back in the mid-1980s. I attribute this to the loss of muscle mass attendant with the use of a GLP-1 . 

Entry 1 The best boy. Early Friday mornings wth Willow are pleasant. It's a bright and cool pre-sunrise, reminding me of showing up early in the morning at the fair. I loved going to county fairs when I was growing up. I would go to "The Puyallup" several times a year well into my 20s. The charm, I guess wore off after that. I fell in love with the fair again with the arrival of kids. Whatever illusion of charm I was convinced as a child was exuded as the bucolic charms of the fair, I understood was subsumed by the Jack Daniel's mirrors, the deep fried twinkies, the Ginsu knives and blaring pop music. Still, even now, days like this fill me with nostalgia. There is a smell to early summer mornings that also take me back to working at camp. Alone, I would leave whatever cabin I was in charge of and wander over to the mess hall to get the terrible camp coffee. At times one or two of the people who ran the camp would be out, but usually I would be alone, walking between ...

 Entry 1.  11:17 p.m. Jenny used the walker today, to great success. She actually could go to the pharmacy at the back of Bartell's, something unthinkable two days ago.  This is a simple bittersweet success, and she and I are very happy about it. I can worry less about her falling, and she can go places and rest along the way. When I was with Jenny at VM in December, Jenny asked Dr. P what the side effects of GTX would be.  He said she might get dry hands and feet, feel a bit nauseous and could get sores in her mouth. Today, the chemo nurse called to check with Jenny on how the taking the chemo pills was going and to answer any questions. During the call, she told Jenny she would lose all her hair.  Fucking Dr. P. The sin of omission is real.